Thursday, August 21, 2008

Lacey's changes

Well, the good news is that Lacey learned to petal a bicycle this week. She is actually really good at it now, but she can really get herself into trouble as well by riding into the road so I have to really keep an eye on her. She thinks she is so grown up now because she can ride a bike like the big kids. I keep meaning to take a little video of her riding you would be so amazed, it really is something.

So we went to WIC 2 days ago and they made me feel guilty enough to finally take Lacey's bottle away. She has been using one to help her go to sleep. Anyway it has been just has hard as I thought it would be. She has been trying to fall asleep now for 3 hours. She didn't take a nap and she went to bed late last night because of the same issue so I thought for sure she would be so hammered that I could put her to bed at 7:00. Well it is almost 10:00 and I just heard a cry. Do I give up or keep trying?

So I have been working about 5-6 hours a day from home mostly, few hours here and there at the office. It becomes pretty much consuming because everytime I have a calm moment with the kids I am working. It doesn't leave me much time to enjoy my children or clean the house, or to even unwind. I haven't even watch any olympics or any TV for that matter in weeks.

I read all of these blogs of yours and I think I am not a very good mom. Maybe you guys are only posting the good stuff. It seems lately that It has only been hard stuff in my life. I could really use a vacation with my kids and husband, or at least a change. Mike isn't going to get as many hours this fall because grade school is starting and they past a law saying that you can't work with school age kids before school hours are out. Anyway I will be working more, but at least it will be at the office and Mike will be home with the kids thus actually giving me a brake. Maybe it won't be bad after all.

6 comments:

Diane said...

Thats cool that Lacey can now ride. I do say that we all need vacation once in a while at least once a year, go somewhere different. I think we should all plan a nice vacation for next year. I think it would be fun. Maybe CA again or going to Denver, or maybe just going to see the grand canyon...or if maybe anyone is up for going to Colombia ;o) lol, j/k I don't know who would want to but me I guess. Well anyways...I think you definitely deserve a nice vacation Michelle.

Rachel Holloway said...

Michelle...you obviously haven't read my blog lately then. :)

I have had a TERRIBLE time lately. It is so hard to fine a balance. Balance between enjoying time for you, for working, for being with the kids. And even though I dont' work, I still struggle with sometimes even WANTING to be with the kids. :) Days can be really long. REALLY long. I know you understand that.

You guys need to take a break! I think you will feel so much better. I would love to see you go somewhere even for a day or two. Just leave everything else behind and go be free! :)

Hang in there!

Josh * Camilla said...

Hey girl, Lacey is getting so big, riding a bike! Remember, you are an awesome Mom! You love & care about your children and not every child gets that. We all have hard days or weeks or months! I really admire you. I don't understand how you deal with everything on your plate and do it all day by yourself. You are very strong. When Josh is gone a lot & the kids are driving me crazy, I always have to tell myself, this too shall soon pass. Hang in there and take baby steps. The best is yet to come.
p.s. I wanted to thank you for telling us about the house. You are an awesome friend!

The Whitaker Family said...

I hear you on the working from home and down time is always work time. I don't work as many hours as you do but I can relate. You definitely need a vacation-- hang in there, ok? I'll bet it will get better.

You've scared me even more about taking away Audrey's binky-- I'm convinced it will be a nightmare. Be strong so you can help me though it too, ok?

Hang in there, Michelle-- you are a strong, good woman and wonderful mother and sometimes life just isn't easy. Lots of love from me!!!

Janel said...

All mothers have there days, weeks, or months. Ladies tells me in Relief Society, "These are the best times when you kids are young" The same ladies keep telling me this. I must look like I need the pep talk.

Kayla said...

Well, I don't exactly post all the times I want to strangle Addy or spank Mieley with a wooden spoon - but I know you're a good mom. I've seen it first hand! And good luck with the bottle take away. That's so hard. I always let my kids just cry it out. It seemed to get better within a week, but it's super hard for the first few days.